Do I Really Have To Let Go?

Do I really have to go through this once again? Why am I here, standing all by myself figuring whats right and what wrong. Deciding which path am I suppose to walk through. I always tell myself to be strong and to be tough no matter what outcomes that may occurs. But still I have to admit that I dont hanve that courage like what I always tell myself. 

At times, I am afraid of making decision. Its not because the matter of being coward or timid. All I aver worried is what happen next aftermath. I may be strong facing what comes tomorrow. But I am not that possibly tough even when the smiles is nicely drawn on me. 

People always say, what makes mankind  gets so weak and some may even have gives up their life is that powerful words. Its a single yet simple to spell. A word that brings many terms and deep meanings. A word that makes every each of mankind cherish every moments of their life when they have the chance to hold on to it. Well Im obviously and absolutely agrees on the fact of how powerful the words is.

Love comes without invitation. Love comes without anyone realize how and when it exist. But I always wonder why love will always be noticed when its leaving. While we are enduring every moments of love, we tends to forget the consequences from the impact of love.

To be loved is the most wonderful moments to be cherished and remember. But no one knows till when will the love stay for us. Have you ever feel how to love and to be loved? Have to ever feel how empty and how painful after the love have gone? People always failed themselves when the time comes for them to let go love.   

Once again I failed in competing love task. I dont know where did I go wrong till it leads me to this decision making. It keeps me thinking and asking myself if its already my time to let go. It hurts right deep in me when it comes to this decision making. Do I really have to let go? I keep asking myself. I dont wish for it to come into my life. Yet after realizing the existence, I dont wish to let go of it either. Its really painful. Why am I here, I asked again. And i realized I've a mistake in between. Theres no point of regretting over the mistakes. Because its a human nature where by every human being did made mistakes in life. 

I knew falling in  love and be loved is the same as taking own risk, challenged own self not to be afraid of the future. I've made my decision I guess. Chances comes once in life time. Only fortunate people deserves second chance. The most luckiest person deserve the third and forth. But still no one can predicts who deserve the chances given. What already awaits me, is something not be missed. I have the chance, and I have decided to grab after it. 

Can I say that I still want to hold on to it? I dont want to let it go. Can I stay here with you? But if its only you let me to, I will stay for as long as you want me to. Loving you is not what i aimed for on our first met. Letting you go is not what I want either on our last met. I dont want it to be the last. Can we stay like this till time decide for us? 

I wish I could convince you how much I love you. I wish you to be right here with me, telling you straight that I dont wish to let go of you. Somehow I wish for a miracle to happen so that I could show you how much you really mean to me. I wish I could say that I miss you badly. If I have the opportunity to hold on to you, I might just hold on to you tightly never to let go. Its like I'm falling in love again. Fall in love with you. 

" it takes a second to like someone.. 

it takes a minute to love someone..

but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.. " 

*wow! aku rase da lame gile aku x buat karangan BI mcm nih. Congrats! U still remember or basic English *